Shades of Blue

I’m off to an event today in the city, Out of the Shadows, to raise awareness on Domestic Violence. Brisbane Youth Services has kindly asked The Broken Records Collective to be a part of it. Unfortunately, Thomas will not be joining Scott and I because he had to fall off his bike and have a badly broken leg. Please, feel bad for him because he loves pity.

Most of my poetry collection is quite sunny and hopeful, but there are a few dark ones in there, so I will be sharing this piece on stage today:

 

She never believed that paper tree standing lonely in her yard,

stabbed its trunk for bleeding sap, but its skin was too hard.

It was hardened cement she drank playing hop scotch in her skirt,

her stitched up socks ripped playing jacks with rocks.

Tell her something her cousin didn’t when she was eight years old.

Or that carcass in the dog’s mouth – broken bones of a home she never owned,

that childhood she burned under a gravestone.

Ever ask her how her day was?

What her favorite color way?

She’d tell you it was purple.

Like a bruise before it fades,

like another shade of blue,

the hue of the sky at twilight when she sneaks to the roof,

etches her perception of life beyond the moon,

beyond the stars, beyond the broken bottles in the section eight school yard.

Blurs the edges to shade them just right.

Her sights set on the spaceship that’ll send her to the stars,

far, far away from here.


Just read

I tried to write you a happy ending.

But the dog did it for me,

panting words without letters

over a coffee, softened with milk,

over a tea, stained with soy.

I promised I’d never be one of those people.

But here I am, and here you are.

Sleep still warm in your cheeks.

I tiptoe through messages in the dark.

Leave the night-light on when I leave.

But for now, I’ll just read.


New project

I’ve worked long and hard to pull sunshine from tea bags and a smile from your toes.

I bet you never knew you could tap dance on a cloud.

I bet you never knew you could whisper hurricane loud.

I made you sleep like a caterpillar, so I’d wake in your cocoon.

Don’t tell me people can’t change.

My cyclone says they do.

My cyclone moves in wandering lust.

But my fingers ache for home.

Home is where the storm is that sends lightning down my spine.

Because when I wake from my chrysalis, there’s your body

echoing the thunder of mine.


And now showing…

 

I have serious writer’s block. I haven’t written anything in over a month except little pieces of half finished shitty poems. But I don’t really care. I am busy playing host organ, working full time and putting a poetry show on with The Anywhere Theatre Festival. And I don’t really care because the show is going better than I could’ve asked. It is in the perfect location at Jet Black Cat Music in West End. The audience is warm and pliable. And I have a partner who comes to every show. Now that is dedication. I’m off to another sold out show tonight and seriously starting to struggle with what to wear as my belly swells. At least leggings stretch and at least I have cool shoes. Maybe not Melbourne cool but Brisbane cool and I’m okay with that.

So this is my little post to say, that  yes, I have been hibernating. But hopefully as the second trimester dawns, I will feel like I’m on crack, as my stepmother explains her pregnancy with my brother. And my pen will ink my page.

 


140 b/m

All I have is snippets.

Half formed words.

Fluttering beats mine try to catch up with.

So my breath shortens.

I pedal faster.

Oxygen is good for you, right?


Book ‘em.

It has officially arrived…for the third time in Brisbane. And third time’s a charm, so you know what that means. Book your ticket NOW! She Stole My Every Roll takes its place this year in the Anywhere Theatre Festival. There would be no better place to perform this story than at Jet Black Cat Music in West End. Shannon is graciously opening her record shop’s door to poetry. For six nights, Eleanor Jackson and I will be filling the intimate space with poetry that breaks your heart and makes you fall in love all over again.


Born Again

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With you, I’m born again.
Every seven years, we stitch ourselves back together.
Swimming in our new skin, we choose silk instead of steel.
Woven together, we are stronger than the Brooklyn Bridge.
I want to feel the spider’s threads on the backs of my eyelids.
I want to catch the sunset in a web of pen stroke.
I want to leather-bind your step.
The kind that dries in the sun.
The kind that bleeds in the rain.
Sometimes the best ammunition is pain.

I know I’ve stained your palms red where they once were pink.
But sometimes the best art is mistakes.
I’m far from practically perfect though I sugar my words -
melt them like jawbreakers with the sweat of my tongue.

I am young enough to hope
and old enough to walk the tightrope of this twin ring code if it means
I’ll be born again.
And not in that Jesus sense.
I’ve been through the commandments, learned the Seven Deadly sins,
knelt at the alter of his spine.
Found that the kind of love that makes me stand
is far better than kneeling.

I want to worship sand on Sundays.
There are salt stains on this seatbelt where there once was snow.
The god I know wants water between my toes.

So I’m painting the sky with sweat and sting.
Loving the love that sings to the beat of a summer tire swing.
I’m smearing the stars with sling-shot dreams and
tasting campfire in my cup.

I am born again to the ocean,
to the mist of your summer skin,
heavy on my tongue,
light under my palm,
I am swimming in the languid lake
of your song.
And it is soft and strong.
You are not the man.
I am not the man.
You are the woman.
I am the woman.
And when we touch, it is spanish chocolate
drunk from a porcelain cup.
It is thick and rich in the mist of Mayan dreams
and tire swings.
And I am licking the bowl clean.


Fly like an eagle to Vulture Street

EXTRA! EXTRA! READ ALL ABOUT IT!

For a limited time only, you can pick up a copy of my hand-made zine, Blister at

JET BLACK CAT MUSIC in WEST END.

Blister is a collection of poems in a narrative sequence.

Pieces encompass what I know best: love, loss and lust.

Is there really any  more to life than that?

Bring a copy home for a mere $5.

While you’re there, buy a record from Shannon,

then stop in a WEST END COFFEE HOUSE.

I’ll make you a flat white you’ll write home about.


Sometimes I wan…

Sometimes I want to win a Slam. But then I remember that the Slam pieces I write don’t stand for anything.

I don’t take this stage along.

I don’t take my pages lightly.

I scrape letters down to the bone.


On Aphrodite

I have been inspired of late by the stunning Isabel Allende. I stumbled across her book, Aphrodite, in the stacks at the Brisbane Square Library. I had a novel of hers in my hand and was searching for a writing book…you know the ones about how you need to stop procrastinating and just start writing. Before I even had a chance to waste time and look for one of those books, Aphrodite was staring up at me, out of order but in the right place.

Call it what you will, but this book found me. Written from personal experience, Allende discusses the senses and power of aphrodisiacs, and her language and quick wit are sexy. And not just because I hear her Chilean accent when I read. Her profundity of language is impressive.

 ”The most intense carnal pleasure, enjoyed at leisure in a clandestine, rumpled bed, a perfect combination of caresses, laughter, and intellectual games, has the taste of baguette, prosciutto, French cheese, and Rhine wine.” – Isabel Allende

I don’t know about you, but that makes me want to pop down to my local and pick up some Kenilworth cheddar, Maggie Beer quince paste and Barossa Shiraz. I am definitely letting this book seep into my senses. I found it appropriate considering the last two pieces I have written include a bit of mangoes and Spanish chocolate. And yes, I will be performing them this Friday at Fresh. Be sure to make your way to the city on Friday night and wind up to wind down.  If you can’t make it, do yourself a favor and read some Isabel Allende.


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